Full Term

One of my prayers has been answered. We have reached 37 weeks which is considered full term. To me, this is a feat in itself! I have worried the last 17 weeks about having Hailey make it this far, and now that worry is gone. This picture is 37 ½ weeks.

The reason I have been wanting to go full term is very selfish. I want my baby girl to be considered a “normal” pregnancy, just as most other pregnancies are. Now this being said means that Hailey could come at any time she would like to. Lately, I have had many tear filled nights and days knowing that each day brings this closer to an end. I’ve been having more selfish thoughts wishing that she didn’t have to go, but then I am reminded of her pure spirit, and how she doesn’t need to be here, and soon her mission will be complete. This doesn’t make the pain go away, but it sure brings much comfort.
As most of you could probably guess, one thing that I hope and pray for is that I get to meet my little Hailey. I tell people that I will accept whatever comes, but a couple of days would be nice, an hour, or even a few minutes at the least. This may not be what will happen, and I have no control over this. I know that whatever happens will be God’s Will, and this I cannot change.
Hailey has brought so much into our lives. I haven’t met her here, but I feel like our bond is so close. This bond makes it hard to even think about losing her. When I am having a hard time, she always starts kicking as if she knows and is reminding me that everything will work out. She also likes to kick when Daddy is around. My perspectives about many things have changed. My testimony has grown tremendously, especially on The Plan of Salvation and putting my trust in the Lord. I look at people differently, realizing that everyone is a Child of God no matter what shape or form they come in, or how many problems they have, and that I need to love everyone. One thing that I have been blessed with is to not get angry about the situation I am in. I remember back when we found out I wanted to get angry, but I couldn’t. There are times now that I want to feel sorry for myself, and I can’t. I have felt at peace the whole time through this all. This has truly been one of the greatest blessings I could have right now, and I hope that it doesn’t leave when Hailey does.
Even though everything is so unsure right now, I do know that everything will be ok. My doctor doesn’t want to induce any earlier than 39 weeks, and even at that he may wait a week or two if she hasn’t come on her own. Everyday is just watching and waiting to see what will happen. I’m starting to get very nervous for the delivery, and how my body will react. A lot of pain has always made me very sick, so I’m hoping that this will not be the case.
During the last few months, we have had so much support through everything. People have been so kind and generous, and we really appreciate all the love and prayers that have been given. We truly have the best friends and family that anyone could ask for. I want to thank Brett especially for taking care of me, and making sure that I am always ok. I really have the best husband in the world and I love him so much! Saturday, we will have our first anniversary. I’ve been told that if you can make it through your first year of marriage, that you can make it through anything. I do believe this, and I know that through this experience we have grown closer and relied on one another to make it through. We are doing well, just watching and waiting until she gets here. Again we appreciate all of the support that you have given!