Our computer cord arrived today, and I decided that I would do a blog post. This picture was taken today at 34 1/2 weeks and I have one thing to say... that shirt is not the only shirt I own! I was looking at all of my other posts and I am wearing that shirt in a lot of them. It just so happens every time we take a picture I am wearing the shirt, but next time I will make a conscious effort to change it. :)
Well here I am at 34 1/2 weeks, and I don't know where the time has gone. It seems as though every time I blink, a new day has arrived. I had a hard time coming up with a title for this post, but it seemed appropriate that the word PREPARING fit best. People that don't really know my situation ask me if I am excited, and I always tell them yes. I am very excited for my little Hailey to get here, but what lies ahead is scary and all unknown. I have been putting off doing many things until school got out, and now that school has ended I have had time to do things I didn't want to do. Last week sometime, we were able to meet with the mortuary. I was very nervous for the appointment, but it went well. The man we met with was so nice, and he made it very comfortable and not awkward. They told us that they have around 6-8 babies that pass each year, and they do everything just for their cost. This is a pure act of service on their part, and such a blessing on ours.
Another thing that i have been preparing is all the things to bury Hailey in. My mother is an amazing seamstress/crafty person, and she has done things for us that we can use, and keep as keep sakes. This recieving blanket, she let me pick out the materials and then she did such a pretty crocheted border around it.
She also crocheted these beautiful baby booties that we will be able to put her in. They are not quite done as a ribbon will be wove around and tied in a bow. (I don't tie very pretty bows so I decided not to put it in yet.)
One of my sister-in-laws makes such cute hats, and I asked her if she would make one for Hailey. I got these in the mail a couple of weeks ago, and they are exactly what I wanted. The bigger hat is about a normal baby hat size, and the little one is so tiny and cute. They are perfect because we don't know how big or little she will be. She is measuring small, but she might surprise us at how big she is. :)
We decided that we will bury her in my baby blessing dress. My mom made this almost 22 years ago, and it still looks adorable. At first I didn't know if it would be small enough, but after seeing it, I decided that it will be perfect as well. Hailey will look like the Angel she is with all of these things.
My mom also makes a quilt for every grandchild. I chose pink and white with a Teddy Bear hugging a heart in the middle. My mom hand quilts these and like I said earlier, is so talented. I haven't decided what blanket I want to bury her in, but I think I will keep this one as a keepsake for sure.
As time has been getting closer, I've tried to prepare mentally as well. Not having school means I have A LOT of time on my hands right now. I've been trying to come up with things to do, so I don't just sit around all day accomplishing nothing. I had bought some fabric a while back to make a blanket with, so I pulled out my sewing machine and did that one morning. I think that it turned out good.
One of the things I have tried to do to prepare mentally is reading the Book of Mormon. It is a great strength in our lives, and it amazes me how we can get different meanings depending on our own situations. There are answers to everything if we search, because the Spirit will tesitfy. Everything in the pregnancy has been going good as well. I get achey sometimes, but I try to think of it as good pain, and this helps me a lot. I'm scared to go to the hospital and come home empty handed, but it will be one of these good pains. One thing that helps me is knowing that Hailey will be in the best place she could be. I don't have to worry about her because she is already saved no matter what happens. I know that she will always be mine, and this brings me comfort. There are many people who would think of my situation as a bad thing, but instead I feel very blessed. One thing that breaks my heart is seeing people that don't have the knowledges that I do, and I feel more sorrow for them. There are also so many worse things in the world, and this is such a small part in the time line of Eternity. My perspectives have forever been changed because an Angel entered my life. I would not take her back for anything, and am grateful for this opportunity that I have now.
