See this beautiful tile...



A sweet lady in my ward gave it to me, and I thought I would share because I think it is worth sharing!

Fall is in the air!

It’s been a while. Lately, I don’t feel that much of our life is blog worthy. It’s pretty much the same routine, and nothing really exciting to take pictures of.

We are now 3 1/2 months since beautiful little Hailey came into our lives. Sometimes it feels like it's been so much longer, and other times it feels like the time has flown. This week we were able to go and order her headstone, so I'm hoping it will be done before it snows!

This semester I have started studying Elementary Education, and I am loving it. I love kids, and I hate to admit it, but my mom was right when she told me that I would love teaching. I guess parents really do know us better than ourselves. ;)

Brett is keeping really busy with the doors right now which is nice. He also is such a big help, and likes his occasional (daily most of the time) naps!




One thing that has happened lately that I would consider blog worthy, is the amazing fall time we have had. Last weekend, we were able to go up the canyon and capture some of the prettiest scenes I have ever seen. We went on a 2 hour hike, and in some points it almost felt like a fairlyland of some sort. It was soooo pretty and I'm glad we got to enjoy it with family. Hope you enjoy as well!

24th of July

For the 24th, we made our way down to Beaver for the festivities. The festivites include watching the parade, going to the park and playing games, foot races, getting snow cones, and just hanging around the park. It's always fun for me to go home, especially when my friends are around so we can catch up! This year, all the sisters were there, and it was lots of fun!

This is us watching the Parade




The kids getting ready to get more candy!






Ever year, at the end of the parade, a firetruck comes through and shoots a water canon, and all of the kids go out and get wet. This is my nieces and nephews after that!




After the festivites at the park, we went home and got ready to go to the free swim at the city pool. This was the first time I had been swimming for a year! I loved every minute of it, and realized how much I miss lifeguarding and teaching swim lessons in the summer time! We then went home and made some good Barbecue Turkey Sanpete Style for dinner! That night my dad was going up on the mountain to check out some Bear problems, and Brett and I got to tag along. I was hoping to see a bear for the first time ever, and get a picture to put on the blog... but of course the bear was camera shy and didn't make an appearance. Instead the pictures are of the amazing sunset that we saw!





Because the bear didn't make an appearance, we went spotlighting for other animals! I tried to get some pictures of them, but they didn't turn out. We saw 1 bull elk, lots of cow and calf elk, 2 big bucks, and lots of does and fawns. I can almost guarantee that this was Brett's favorite part, even though he would deny it! It was so fun to spend the weekend and do lots of fun things, especially with the family!

Summer Fun!

Now that I am getting back into the swing of things, we have been able to have a couple of summer adventures the last two weeks. Our first little adventure, we went up Wales Canyon and went camping.

This was the tent that Brett and I built.


It was nice to be up on the mountain, and to leave all of our worries back home.


Lately, I have had an obsession with flowers, and the natural beauty all around. I love the mountains, because it is so easy to recognize and dwell on the beautiful things that have been created for us to enjoy.








One thing I have never payed much attention to is a Sego Lily. They are a very simple, but beautiful flower. They have to have perfect conditions to grow, and even at that, they take many years to bloom. The day we buried Hailey, there were Sego Lilies all throughout the cemetery. Now, whenever I see one, it reminds me of her.




Another neat thing we saw, was a flowering cactus. I have known that cacti do flower, but I have never actually seen one. I only wish it would have had more than one, as there were more buds looking like they could bloom any day.


As we were riding and exploring a little bit, Brett really wanted to find this tree. Brett got a picture when he was on his mission with his Mom and Dad standing by this tree, and it really means a lot to him.


As a little bit of history, Brett took me to see this rock which was carved on in the late 1800's.






On our way home, I decided to take a picture of Wales through the canyon.


This is the zoomed in version I took after, and our house is by one of the clumps of trees.


I love camping, but it's always nice to come home and take a long shower.

On Wednesday of this week we went fishing up to Scofield Reservoir. We were so excited to finally get the boat out, and I may just have caught fishing fever.




Having fun riding in the boat!




Not catching anything, which I blame on my fishing pole being "out of order," as a part was left at home. :)


I didn't catch anything, but as we were getting ready to leave, Brett caught one. It isn't always about catching the fish, but spending time together, and I really had fun this time!

1 month down...

Last Saturday marked one month of Hailey’s arrival. Tomorrow marks one month of her graveside service. First of all, it doesn’t feel like it has been a month, but on another aspect, we still have a lifetime to go.



The last little while, I have done a lot of thinking. Thinking of things that have happened, and things to come. When I graduated from High School, I thought I had my whole life planned out… Little did I know that life doesn’t turn out exactly how you plan it. Life is more about following the Lord, and seeing where it takes you in life. The other day as I was cleaning our room, I found a quote from Anita, Brett’s mom. It said, “Well, life is not what we expect all the time; however, I know we have the truth.” She had written this in a letter to Brett when he was on his mission. It wouldn’t have been long after, that she was diagnosed with cancer, but she was right on. We don’t know what is going to happen in life, but we do have the truth, and all we have to do is keep following the plan and being obedient.


Things in life aren’t always necessarily easy, or things that we want to do, but we do them because we know the truth. As I was thinking about this, I started thinking about those that have gone before, especially the pioneers. I’m sure most of them didn’t want to leave everything, or walk thousands of miles, but they did because they knew it was what they needed to do. Our challenges today are different, but we can still have that kind of Faith, and get through hard things because we know the truth. The Gospel is so wonderful and helps us in times of Joy and Sorrow.


As I was looking through a set of my old scriptures, I found a quote by Joseph Fort Newton that said, “We cannot tell what may happen to us in the strange medley of life, but we can decide what happens to us - how we take it, what we do with it - and that is what really counts in the end. How we take the raw stuff of life and make it a thing of worth and beauty - that is the test of living.” This is very true, and really helped me out significantly. The Lord doesn’t purposefully send things our way, but he does allow things to happen, and he always prepares a way for us. We can’t control the things that happen, but we can control our attitude. Usually hard times are our times to grow spiritually. We can always take a “bad” thing, and turn it into something good. I try to think how the Savior was when he was on the Earth, and his wonderful example of Love.
He loved everyone, those that hated him, and even killed him. Because of His Sacrifice, I am able to use the Atonement and get through anything, and control how I feel about it. He knows how I feel, and everything that I have been through. I am forever indebted to Him for everything He has done, and because of Him, I will get to see my little Hailey again.


It’s so wonderful the knowledge that I have, and this makes life a little bit easier. Each day is getting better, and easier to handle. I still miss Hailey, but I always will. There will always be an ache in my heart here on Earth, but it will be filled again. As of now, I’m just trying to live my life in a way that I will be able to see my little Hailey again. I have one month down, but a lifetime of experiences ahead, and I intend to make the best of them.

Hailey, The Reason We Try Harder

Well here I am back to the beginning not knowing where to start. Days keep going by with me not knowing where the time has gone. I guess I start where I left off. I talked about my doctors appointment on Monday. Tuesday came around, and the home health nurse came in and everything was good. Hailey was really active that day, and that night was the last time I can remember Hailey kicking. On Wednesday the 15, I didn’t feel her move all day. By the afternoon, we called over to the doctor and they told us to come in. We went over to the hospital and they had us go straight over for an ultrasound. It was confirmed that she had passed. I can honestly tell you that I was not devastated, but I felt at peace. My little girl went peacefully, and didn’t have to suffer through anything. I know that Heavenly Father was preparing us by helping us feel that it was time. We were thinking it was time for her to come, but all along it was time for her to go. I was able to understand this, and that it was His will, and it worked out for the best. We didn’t have to worry about her anymore because her mission was done, and we just needed to get her here.



They decided to induce me that night, so we got admitted into a delivery room around 6:00. They started me about 7:45 that night, and we were expecting to get her here by morning. To make a long story short after nearly 28 hours, she was born at 11:37p.m. on Thursday, June 16. I was relieved to get her here, and I know Brett and our families were worn out from being around the hospital for such a long time. I got to hold her first, and it was so wonderful. Her little feet and hands were so cute, and I still couldn’t believe she was mine, and she was so perfect. After holding her for a bit, Brett held her, and then my mom . They then went to weigh and measure her. After holding her, I was thinking she was at least 5 lb, but she ended up only being 4 lb 4 oz and 18 inches long. Brett then got to help bathe her, and get her dressed in a cute little outfit. After she was dressed, everyone else that was there came in and Brett and our fathers gave her a beautiful blessing. We then had a photographer come and take pictures, and I will be forever grateful to him and his service so I can remember my little Angel. Around 2:30 a.m. Brett called the mortuary, and they came to get her about 3:00 a.m. Her little body was so fragile, and we knew that the sooner we got her there, the better. It was hard to watch them take her away, and I wish I could have kept her with me longer, but I was also very exhausted and tired.



On Friday we left the hospital in the early afternoon. When we got home I think it really hit me that we were home empty handed. No more kicks or wiggles and she was really gone. I told Brett that it was so much easier at the hospital because she was right there and I could love and hold her. My heart was so full, but so empty at the same time. The weekend finally went by, and we decided to do her graveside on Wednesday.



On Sunday, Brett and I wrote Hailey’s obituary. When I looked at the date for Wednesday, I realized that we would be doing the service on June 22, Hailey’s due date. Tuesday we were able to go to the mortuary to dress her. She was so beautiful, and looked like a little Angel. She also looked like a doll, and I had to keep reminding myself that she was MY daughter, and not a doll.



On Wednesday we had a short viewing before the graveside for family. I still marvel at how perfect and beautiful she looked. After, Brett and I had to close the casket. I was dreading this part the most out of everything. I totally lost it at this point, and it kind of felt like I was shutting her out of my life. I know that this wasn’t the case, but it was really hard to know that it was the last time I would see her face or hold her little hand in this life. I sat there for a few moments and just sobbed and tried to soak in every little detail of her that I could before we sealed it. We then went to the cemetery where we had a short, but beautiful graveside service. Everything turned out so perfect.



As I look back at all of the events, sometimes it feels like more of a dream than reality. I have had many mixed emotions about everything. Right now, I literally take it a day at a time. I am grateful that I had time to prepare for Hailey to get here. We got to enjoy our time with her, even though it was short. Because her time was short, I hope I didn’t waste away the time that I had. I know that she didn’t need to come here because she is so perfect, but I miss her so much. I know that she is not far, but even this doesn’t fully take the pain away that I feel. Each day brings new obstacles to overcome, but we are managing. I know that I am receiving strength that is not my own to help me through this. I know I said that when she left I was afraid the peace and understanding would leave, but I know that she is helping me even more now so I can find my “new normal” as my sister put it.



I know I always talk about how wonderful Brett is, but I do because it is true. When we came home, I was talking to him about some fears that I have, and he reminded me that now we just need to go forward with faith, and keep on trusting the Lord in everything. I am grateful to him and his example to me, and everything that he does for me. He is the best! I know that I’ve also said this before, but we really have the best family and friends EVER! Everyone has been so supportive, and we appreciate all of the love, thoughts, and prayers that you have offered for us. Thank You! I know much of the strength comes from this. Words will never describe how I feel, and how I miss my little one, but I hope she knows that she is loved and missed so much. I am grateful to know where she is, and that I will get to be with her someday. I am so grateful that not much longer than a year ago I was able to be sealed to my best friend, and know that our children are born under the covenant. Families are forever, and Hailey is my reason to try harder everyday.

Hailey's Obituary

Hailey June Roberts

“Our Little Angel” Hailey June Roberts fulfilled her mission here on Earth June 16, 2011 at 11:37 p.m. as a stillborn infant. Hailey was greeted in Heaven by Grandma Anita Roberts, and Uncles Jacob Frank Roberts, and Spencer Jay Farnsworth. She is survived by her parents Brett and Marisha Roberts of Wales, UT, grandparents Dennis and Beth Ann Roberts of Wales, UT, and Brent and Marsha Farnsworth of Beaver, UT. Although her time here on Earth was brief, she was a pure gift from our Heavenly Father. Her short life has brought so much love, and touched many people’s lives. She is loved and missed by many. A Graveside Service with family will be held on Wednesday June 22, in Wales. Online condolences are available at rasmussenmortuary.com